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 To me, women were always suspicious, they lie, are lachrymose, they are never correct or honest.  This was my view and, besides I have remained should by this opinion.  Since up to 2005, I had none such and lived well.  Then by an Internet forum, I have C. got to know, long time has we discussed only on-line, to them to me surprise she wrote is soon in Vienna and it, nevertheless, would be nice if we would get to know us.  Allowedly, she whrite very much and the forum contributions had made me curious, so I accepted.  What I, today looked, better would leave.

 When she came at the hotel on me to, was the first impression: in a masculine manner rather good-looking, a wide-flat face without make-up, irregular teeth, the medium blond hair not especially well do coiffured, however, held back with a black hair tyre. I have she never seen - in the time of our friendship - without this tyre all the same with which opportunity also always, today I mean it a fetish is for them.  She was also not especially elegantly dressed, and then a grey coat, Jeans, and pink pullovers, I have never seen her during the years differently, than in this presentation in summer arrived also still a grey pullover.  Because myself lay very much on suitable cloakroom worth, it irritated me a little because from her information was always to be picked out, that she gathered professionally with the rich and the beauties of this world.  Regardless, I liked she, was like-able anyhow they to myself and we well got on, in spite of the age difference of twenty years.

 Of course, I knew that she has a exceptionally large vocabulary. And as she wrote, she also spoke and told.
She prosed me about the great jobs, them already had from which travelling she would have made and knew the people that.  Why I should not believe her, I myself do not lie; it is too strenuous to me and of course, white, I that every lie is disproved. My foreign motto is, in the moment to bear the consequences if I have made a mistake.

 C. had at this time a relation with a known doctor from Vienna with which she has founded supposedly a company, I have not understood something with blood, but exactly this and her statements were also not comprehensive.  The wife sanctioned this relation supposedly.  However, their place of residence is in Bavaria, so that they could not feel so often.  Now I am not in addition there to judge, and if it concerns love, I am condemned the last them.  Yes … if it would have concerned then love …

 Well, we have on, have laughed a lot and it has turned out a little bit like a friendship.  C. is 20 years younger than I am and anyhow I have seen in her one daughter, unfortunately, a daughter I have never agreed.  We were really trusted in relatively short time very much, she knew about me and I (thought) I knew everything about her.

Some months we have undertaken together nice things, although we lived, nevertheless, far apart.  I am a very generous person and if I help, or somebody a joy can make, then I do this.  When we one day on the way were not functioned her credit card and it was natural that I have stepped in, why also not.  I accepted, would already regulate sometime them this.  However, from there paid-up I always….

Yes, then turned out that she had no work …

She told me that the company with Prof. D.Schw. is a flop and brings nothing and is they now on working search.  Moreover, he would have made her reproaches for the company credit card; anyhow, the relation is to an end.

However, she has the next lover already found.

-----Original mail----

From: C. R.
In: NO.
Sent: Wednesday, 19th of July 2006, 2:16:35 PM clock
Reference: good news...
… just have called  the americaner.
Tomorrow I should be around 16 o'clock in schaffhausen. 
Then go I sometimes tomorrow after schaffhausen and show me from mine best side
Please, please please

benno I have also written...
I copy it to you:
Wow … what a picture. The peacock looks like in animal straight out of a fairytale.
Benno
Of course can we talk
And nothing is too late.
I love you - this has not changed and there is no day I m thinking of you a thousand times.
I what really convinced that this between us could become a wonderful lovestory … and then I read what you wrote to Cara and I began to feel uncertain how you see our relation-hip.
I never do things halfhearted … whatever it is and this is the way how I love.
You never know where things are going or how they develop … but … I in a person for amusement in between.
Oh Benno. it is hard to explain this in english … do you have in idea what I mean?
I measure you badly …
Kiss you Benno … and how wish I could do it in person.
Take care and have a beautiful day
C...

 From: B.St …. @hispeed.ch]
Sent: 2006.07.19 Wed 09:28
To: C... R...
Subject: White peacock - Good luck to you ~Absolutely beautiful! ~
What's up sweetness. Could we chat about "the US" or is it to late … I measure you!!
Your touch, kisses, love and you being you around me!!!
Kiss … in your heart ….
Benno

 C. then reported about Benno, he works by the Swiss, he would have South African, nevertheless, his money about one million euros - on an island (Jersey) and when it turned out that he was not determined this to change, it was with the love very quickly to ends.  Today I am not surprised of course, that it also became with the job nothing.  She had no qualifications, but I did not know this at this time yet.  I had just pity as the refusal came and it only refusals always came.

But, and she explained this decidedly, no problem, they would still get about 15,000€ of a big motorcycle company and then it would go well to her again.

 However, only a little later she explained to me completely horrified, Ka--- i would have gone to bankruptcy and she would have lost.  Though I am uninformed in the motorcycle sport, but that such a big group should go bankrupt already surprised me, but at this time in Japan, the economic situation was weak, so I thought her.  Why not?  All bets are off!  Maybe I wanted to believe it, I had them, nevertheless, with pleasure and of course compassion.  Nevertheless, I liked her.  The fact that I was silly and naive, I know this only today.