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GeoZin... writes:
 10/20/2007: Racing horses are like good women, one must properly be able to handle with it what, unfortunately, many men still do not understand.  I would pay the flight to you with pleasure and the stay over there would be no problem.

 10/21/2007: Must you still look for your mother? I have with my also so smaller problems, she is 87 and not badly in form, however, has at the moment a friend and he is - you properly hear father in a cloister where he demanding lessons it gives for pupils the Abitur would like to make.  He is nice, I know him briefly, and however, he is equally old like me!  What should I say in addition?  At least my mother is financially independently, however, where the love falls down it sometimes becomes a little bit difficultly...

With which I cannot serve a boat is to be had around on it sex, some fear of the water has although I can well swim.  But because we have arrived now with the sex you have written about that with sex on the Atlantic or where always it was, sex on the sailboat sounds quite well, however, I do not know it to me not whether would be too worried.

  10/24/2008: However, there were women them my hands have had with pleasure.  I can handle with them quite well, am a very good Streichler, and would also like to stroke your bottom!  Therefore, the bottom is also important!  I love bottom.  I am certainly your bottom would love my strokes.  Say never again that the bottom is not important.
.....  Please, no wrong ends move, I am not gay!  I would like to stroke not only your bottom. I would like to start quite far on top, in your hairs, your face, your neck, your shoulders, your arms, your breasts - for it I would need maybe a little longer then I love breasts - Your abdomen, your femurs and of course everything is what in the area still worth to stroke, your hollows of the knee and your little runners with every single toes.
....  If she is not sufficient, you must fly quite fast over here, then I need my hands in addition and my voice and my lips, I quite feel well with kiss and my tongue some experience already has.  Do you notice that I am not so completely without experience if it around women acts?  Now, I was married two times, first sometimes with a model from Z. we have lived together only briefly what she has not stopped, however from asking the poor student quite a lot to the cash desk.  Needed to get rid of a bank loan around them again.
...  The second spot was different, I married my puppy love, because of her, I was in Munich, and then they studied there.  Big love, bad sex, however, many good things besides.  We have ourselves after 30-marriage year’s part, it was not simply, however went friendly, and would say we are still friends.

....  My financial relations are not virtually you believe, I have brought already a little bit aside and now live on it.  I live on risk, make what to myself like, and hope it goes well in such a way.  If it runs crooked I say goodbye friendly, I can handle with the gun.  For my ex-wife I must not look, she is a very rich, nice lady

.....  I cannot write the history with Mr. S., I must tell them you. I hope only that you were not with the arse in the bed, he is not to be used certainly also there. I do not think he still a sort of humor has what acts he is masturbate, are found importantly and show how much money he has.  Idiot....

Remake: Streichler = slap and tickle

Remark: Sir Michael S. is one of the richest men of Europe … in addition C. has bragged always only with such men.

10/25/2007 you lie would lie in the bed here it is half nine.  But I think just repeatedly of you and now me would like to know like you in the bed lies.  Do you sleep with nightdress or pyjamas or even in the baby really?  You do not know this presumably any more, was in to Monroe periods, she might be not naked in friable America, besides, so one had a VOL., briefly, tits high, but please no mammary-warm point.  Happy America!  There the world was still in order.

But today which had Clinton though no sex with the thick, however, his sperms were all over.  Yes, today it is different, sex must be, even in the Bush's country, but please without upper Bush, that goes to the church and is friable beside stupidly still, but he is a president.  Importantly?  No, dangerously because damn stupid!

I wanted to know, actually, only about you like you sleep. Naked?  Half-naked? Swathed?  What gives anything else?  Now, I sleep here only naked, at home mostly in the nude, on the hunt in the nude it never, there is mostly too coldly for naked.

...  So in the nude I find already very well, stroke makes only properly fun if what strokes one is also naked.  If you my nakedness excites simply say see if you liked to sleep not in the nude, I would become easy like a pirate creep up me and to you under the skirts reach.

...  I have a friend in B. he is a president of the horserace - association and a narrow friend the Ja.. (stud farm F.hof) There would be maybe to be made something, will request him tomorrow once softly, he searches anyway a rider for me about the winter here in B.

...  Write to me tomorrow now I must stop there visit, will clear up you tomorrow about the visit, no big and long history, not really importantly.

From: Co..... Ri........:
To: 'NR.
' Sent: Thursday, 25th of October, 2007 09:52
 reference: FW: Nacked?   
Boo devil …


 Remark: The stud farm F.hof belongs to a known coffee industrialist in Germany.

10/25/2008: So with the visit from yesterday I must explain to you already still.  She is very big, very slender, very black, and very sexy, had the longest bones on the island, a little older than you did, has a subsidiary them something is 10 years old and was close to me.  No big love, however, a good mate, went once per week on the farm and has said a horse hello (the superannuated Greco).  Before the other she had some inhibitions, was no horsewoman, however, a charming person.  After I knew them already two months and no chance had to hop with her in the bed, I have them after L. invited.  She came and gave me the shock of the life, she absolutely wanted to sleep with me, I hardly, however, wanted it also to believe, my friend between the bones deals no desire received, something.  Sad news. It remained one week, except the bed, it was quite nice.
Back in B....  I have tried it once more, she was the best lover one could have introduced itself, with me, and however, nothing at all was wrong.  I believe I have got twice to make with her dear one.  I believe them was easy too overpowering, too sexily, too hotly for somebody
...  Because there is a Bavarians-lover in my funny life, I have informed her that our "relation" has petered out and we will remain only friends.  On it she has come to me, has informed me that, however, she me loves very much in her own kind understands me.  She has packed her cases, has said me goodbye, pressed a small kiss the cheek, and has gone.  I must say: With a lot of pedicle.

 ...  So, now it becomes exciting!  My friend M. from B. if has organised a rider to me for the winter.  She has made first the Abitur and then has learnt fully qualified groom in the horseracing team.  As a very good rider, her boss has said, she should ride running what she has made, and how!  She has ridden in Germany more than 700 running’s and has won about 80 of it, in Holland she had 10 victories and one in France.  As a woman, especially if still successfully, one has in the German man's world not many friends.  In winter there is hardly running and she would want to me after B. come and the winter work.  Sounds excellently. Indeed, M. has informed me that he wants them in the spring again healthy and cheerfully to get back.  She will live with me in the house, so that I can pay attention to them. But there are amusing parallels to you, I have never seen them, she is 26 years old, should be extremely attractive and very hot-blooded.  Do you notice what I would like to inform you?  You should come across! The competition is in the start holes!

10/26/2007: need interlocutor, like to hold your hand is presumably stultified, however, no AIDS has, the last test in autumn was OK.

 C sends me comments to the mail of GeoZin....  „To answer to him she already needs a lot of Barolo... or„ My keyboard is quite broken from the Schmarrn (nonsense) I write...  I sit two days about an answer... a stupid spinner... as goofy as other (she meant her man)... I try to seal just a Zin-mail.  After a cup of coffee I have already created the heading *laugh*

 On the 10/26/2007, GeoZin... has still sent pictures!

Her nasty comment: OHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GOOOOOOOOOOOODDDD
 how was this vomiting horrified ugh no thank you. 
reincarnation from saddam hussein?
(Original citation in writing)

My concern was honest, because I had retired, however, to the end of the year and planned my move in Switzerland; I could not meet them, as well as I  in all the time was also to her home never invited .  We agreed that she would help me in the 1 March week in the translocation and well pay me to her of course everything and we would have to talk a lot of time.  And I could look after them, because the relation to her mother was, she said, possibly badly.  I had always-deep pity on C.

February leant towards to the end; as of now, I had everything packed, when she has called me.  Now, nevertheless, she has one more employment as a manager, not at the place where Dr.Web.  is, on the other landside.  Nevertheless,  I may understand please that she cannot knock out the offer and not be angry (please, please) and do not forget that she would love only me  ….und so further et cetera, just the usual.  What I should say, what I should make, only except my move without her help to make, to well organise.

Certainly, I was angry and now, actually, I wanted this friendship - where one only gives and one only takes - to end in talk.  Why have I already kept to it only not at that time?  How many tears, terms of abuse, insults, and the great disillusion about a wrong friendship I would have saved!

The communication was sporadic, sometimes e-mail, sometimes quite a short phone call.  Always the statement the job would be in order, it is hot only terribly, and homesickness, after the dog, the cats, and me would have them.

Still some short contacts - in which I imagined them, however, only her new work - mostly about Skype.  I was really of the opinion they would work.

Fai...@gmail.com 06/05/07
To: ritaeva.ne...@gmail.com
date: 5/6/2007 14:20
subject: I STILL LIVE

Hello my sweetness
I still live.  Unfortunately, completely without communicative device.

The telephone card in SATURDAY mobile phone is over and they send me a new one. Actually, she should already be there, but South Africa just... Here nobody has hectic rush. In runs to the week it will probably come, then I can write at least SMS.
Here goes, everything well.  The job is relatively tasteless, but this makes no difference.

The people are nice, and everything very well so far.  Only the fact that they permanently afrikaans babble something annoys me - I will still well have to learn it.
But there is to report not a lot... it is always the same one.

Except that, I have a little homesickness, above all ours misses you terribly...  "Ratsch-stunden".

Internet is difficult here because also per minute is subtracted, but I have found here one, which has a things business, and leaves me now and again near the computer.

This is stupid also, because of job search in Europe.
What is there with you new?  Tell me what the nice.
As soon as I have the map, I send you an SMS, and then we can call up maybe short.

I squeeze, I embrace..., and quite a THICK kisses
Greet to me your "child" J.
All all love...
Your longing C ….

Remake: Ratsch-Stunden = hours to make a rasping noise

Then comes nothing more.  Although, of course I have written.  I called up after a few weeks her mother because I was, nevertheless, in worry.

She said literally on my question as if it goes for the daughter: „Well, maybe he has already shot them, she also knows nothing! “  I asked:”Who?” Mrs. R. said: „Well, Er…! “

It turned out, that she had gone very well again to Dr. W.  This made me absolutely perplexed.  Then we have talked long time, and then have told Mrs. R ….hat to me that her daughter was one single disappointment, which would never have followed something right thing qualified, and no regulated activity.  She would have given up for a long time to herself making illusions.  But it has to do money in the house, them, the mother, cannot pay the loans and debts of her small pension any more.

After this message, the friendship was for me finished.  I wanted nothing more have to do with her lies, her deception, and this irresponsibility.

 And, nevertheless... again, when she mailed, how much she misses me that she would not have dared to say the truth, so that I do not condemn them and other more, I could wrapped be.  However, she would come home at the middle of July, what it is already glad to talk, finally, again with me.

"R ….C …  @t-online.de
 to me
Details register 03/07/07

Hello my love

Today from T-Online account, because I cannot log in according to the Google mail any more.  Wrong password.  Though they have sent me a new one, but to the bonbrook address in which I am able from here not near.

Why do you write never back then?

Sooo nastily on me?

Nevertheless, I have tried to explain it what I should have done then other - and one single word and I would not have done it.

Please, please forgive me, nevertheless, and is never bad with me. I lack you however, thus very much.

Yesterday people from Vienna in the Lodge, Dr. St. (dentist) and his companion.  This was a nice change and, finally, once more somebody for chatting.

Otherwise the situation is unchanged, I work the way along me from day to day... promotes me and gets - if generally an answer as usual refusals.  On the 18th of July fly I home...  I already count the days and hours... for two weeks if nothing arises with a job, but with it I do not count already at all and try to compensate me with the fact that I have to go back again.

What is there then new with you, everything OK?

Oh, please Rita please please... writes back to me, nevertheless, a teeny-weeny mail.

Nevertheless, I love you and squeeze firmly.

Greetings also to Ronald...

C...

----------Forwarded message----------

From: Rita Eva N …
Date: 7/3/2007 11:16
Subject: Re: Is never bad, nevertheless.
To: "R …  C …  @t-online.de

Hello C …,

I am not bad, is disappointing only incredibly and in bewilderment.
Why the lying?  I have anticipated it; it has confirmed your mummy whom I have called up to me.
What I mean about it, I have said you everything.  And I have it certainly well intentioned.
If you are happy in this way and above all with such an idiot, this should be right to me.

Brigand’s lair I have written back and also sms I have sent.  I do not know where they are.  However, I credit this man that he steals this.  C …, it gives certainly here also a possibility.  And something else, your mummy is unlocked very much.  What she has said me that have surprised me.  I believe you estimate them wrong.

But, anyway, it is everything your decision.  You to me are absent I probably do not need to stress largely.  Very much even... and once more *to obliged * one has do nothing at all to.

With me everything is so far OK, we have settled down very well.  Only the car is broken, and I must save for a new one.  At the moment, I am a person travelling by train what I make with pleasure, but a car would sometimes feel well.

C... it gives certainly to find a possibility also here a job.  I know it is hard to be screwed the claims down, but is found anything throughout.  It must not be in South Africa.  It do not become the house anyhow can keep; your mummy also says this.  I know it is absolutely discouraging, but you can tear yourself there out.  Announce private bankruptcy and it are your debts, which stack up themselves more, and more, loose.

For months, I have with nobody more can rattle, Si.  also does not announce itself any more.  The forum bobs up and down thus before itself.  I have made the wedding newspaper for Maxi and Sunny. Unfortunately, there is V ….  she would be quite ready with a contribution in the remains, but.

Still I do not go especially with pleasure to this event, but this is with me always in such a way.

The next week there comes Carl... he is still in the occupational stress.  There nothing has changed.
Let us see what this does, believes me; sometimes I am quite rather lonesome.  But one on the whole lot gets used.

 Oh, yes, I have said this word, I have said come to me, and we talk and see what happen.  But your friend Brigitte or in such a way, has you tried to persuade, so what I remains to be done?

I like you also very much, am maybe so horrified I, therefore that you had to prostitute yourself again to this monster.  You do not need this.  Come back and we talk, but this time honestly.R … was also away completely there and when he has to know what you have made again.

I squeeze quite firmly.
Rita

So, the lies thus serve narcissistic people as a widely unaware strategy to deny painful realities, to manipulate others and to raise her self-esteem.  (Charles Ford)

Notorious liars stick to this desirable world, a mixture of lie, mania, and phoney recollections, often stubbornly.  (Anton Delbrück)

However, on looking more carefully appears that liars are socially isolated by no means.  Many would have amorous affairs, friends, and family.  Liars need constantly people who can be to lie to.  (Hans Stoffels)

However, where from I had to beware of, that C... belonged to these people, I have believed in honest friendship.

Sometimes I think about it whether I, with my honesty, the wrong way went.  Since subsequently I had to tell lies for them and lie what was so disagreeable to me towards very nice friends.  However, I said the truth I would disgrace of my friend and, nevertheless, I liked them. My son has recognised this, but I have not belonged on him.  And I regret this today deeply.  Many have known it, because they knew C. long since, but has said it me nobody.

 To me, women were always suspicious, they lie, are lachrymose, they are never correct or honest.  This was my view and, besides I have remained should by this opinion.  Since up to 2005, I had none such and lived well.  Then by an Internet forum, I have C. got to know, long time has we discussed only on-line, to them to me surprise she wrote is soon in Vienna and it, nevertheless, would be nice if we would get to know us.  Allowedly, she whrite very much and the forum contributions had made me curious, so I accepted.  What I, today looked, better would leave.

 When she came at the hotel on me to, was the first impression: in a masculine manner rather good-looking, a wide-flat face without make-up, irregular teeth, the medium blond hair not especially well do coiffured, however, held back with a black hair tyre. I have she never seen - in the time of our friendship - without this tyre all the same with which opportunity also always, today I mean it a fetish is for them.  She was also not especially elegantly dressed, and then a grey coat, Jeans, and pink pullovers, I have never seen her during the years differently, than in this presentation in summer arrived also still a grey pullover.  Because myself lay very much on suitable cloakroom worth, it irritated me a little because from her information was always to be picked out, that she gathered professionally with the rich and the beauties of this world.  Regardless, I liked she, was like-able anyhow they to myself and we well got on, in spite of the age difference of twenty years.

 Of course, I knew that she has a exceptionally large vocabulary. And as she wrote, she also spoke and told.
She prosed me about the great jobs, them already had from which travelling she would have made and knew the people that.  Why I should not believe her, I myself do not lie; it is too strenuous to me and of course, white, I that every lie is disproved. My foreign motto is, in the moment to bear the consequences if I have made a mistake.

 C. had at this time a relation with a known doctor from Vienna with which she has founded supposedly a company, I have not understood something with blood, but exactly this and her statements were also not comprehensive.  The wife sanctioned this relation supposedly.  However, their place of residence is in Bavaria, so that they could not feel so often.  Now I am not in addition there to judge, and if it concerns love, I am condemned the last them.  Yes … if it would have concerned then love …

 Well, we have on, have laughed a lot and it has turned out a little bit like a friendship.  C. is 20 years younger than I am and anyhow I have seen in her one daughter, unfortunately, a daughter I have never agreed.  We were really trusted in relatively short time very much, she knew about me and I (thought) I knew everything about her.

Some months we have undertaken together nice things, although we lived, nevertheless, far apart.  I am a very generous person and if I help, or somebody a joy can make, then I do this.  When we one day on the way were not functioned her credit card and it was natural that I have stepped in, why also not.  I accepted, would already regulate sometime them this.  However, from there paid-up I always….

Yes, then turned out that she had no work …

She told me that the company with Prof. D.Schw. is a flop and brings nothing and is they now on working search.  Moreover, he would have made her reproaches for the company credit card; anyhow, the relation is to an end.

However, she has the next lover already found.

-----Original mail----

From: C. R.
In: NO.
Sent: Wednesday, 19th of July 2006, 2:16:35 PM clock
Reference: good news...
… just have called  the americaner.
Tomorrow I should be around 16 o'clock in schaffhausen. 
Then go I sometimes tomorrow after schaffhausen and show me from mine best side
Please, please please

benno I have also written...
I copy it to you:
Wow … what a picture. The peacock looks like in animal straight out of a fairytale.
Benno
Of course can we talk
And nothing is too late.
I love you - this has not changed and there is no day I m thinking of you a thousand times.
I what really convinced that this between us could become a wonderful lovestory … and then I read what you wrote to Cara and I began to feel uncertain how you see our relation-hip.
I never do things halfhearted … whatever it is and this is the way how I love.
You never know where things are going or how they develop … but … I in a person for amusement in between.
Oh Benno. it is hard to explain this in english … do you have in idea what I mean?
I measure you badly …
Kiss you Benno … and how wish I could do it in person.
Take care and have a beautiful day
C...

 From: B.St …. @hispeed.ch]
Sent: 2006.07.19 Wed 09:28
To: C... R...
Subject: White peacock - Good luck to you ~Absolutely beautiful! ~
What's up sweetness. Could we chat about "the US" or is it to late … I measure you!!
Your touch, kisses, love and you being you around me!!!
Kiss … in your heart ….
Benno

 C. then reported about Benno, he works by the Swiss, he would have South African, nevertheless, his money about one million euros - on an island (Jersey) and when it turned out that he was not determined this to change, it was with the love very quickly to ends.  Today I am not surprised of course, that it also became with the job nothing.  She had no qualifications, but I did not know this at this time yet.  I had just pity as the refusal came and it only refusals always came.

But, and she explained this decidedly, no problem, they would still get about 15,000€ of a big motorcycle company and then it would go well to her again.

 However, only a little later she explained to me completely horrified, Ka--- i would have gone to bankruptcy and she would have lost.  Though I am uninformed in the motorcycle sport, but that such a big group should go bankrupt already surprised me, but at this time in Japan, the economic situation was weak, so I thought her.  Why not?  All bets are off!  Maybe I wanted to believe it, I had them, nevertheless, with pleasure and of course compassion.  Nevertheless, I liked her.  The fact that I was silly and naive, I know this only today.